Emergency Brake

Oh my! I am sitting here reminding myself to breath! So in case you have been out of the loop in my life it has been crazy. I went from an amazing journey in Kenya to coming home to my seizures going out of control. Racking my body, tearing at my soul, and choking me of breath. I have been on ventilators and intibated and rushed in ambulances. I have questioned the age old question Why? Last night was another night of racking seizures. I want to know what is my purpose in the all this. I wish I could tell you that I had this great mind blowing epiphany and know I now that my suffering is for some great reason, but that would be a lie. What I can tell you is that even in the low times when I feel like Jesus has left me He is still there! Right now I know that He loves me and will always love me! So no matter what happens He is there.... It is hard, but the thing is remembering that when all the turmoil is going on. That is the true Art of it all!