Giving It Some Gas

So I have been doing some major soul searching over the last months. Life has been rough of the past year. I don't believe in New Years resolutions because I think that you should try to constantly be making yourself a better person. This year was no different. I have missed the last couple Sundays of church because I have been sick, but I have been talking with my husband because more and more I believe that God is putting up HUGE obstacles for what I want and for what HE wants for me. It seems that every time I want to go to pursue the dreams that I always had of becoming a Doctor I get seriously ill. He has been laying on my heart that my sole purpose in life is to share my story.... When I had told my husband this one Sunday after he got home from church his eyes got huge. He told me that he couldn't"t believe that I was telling him this because that was what the whole sermon was on.... I think that alot of things that have happened to me in my life like me in this wheelchair right now was God's way of slowing me down. I was going a thousand miles an hour and had no time for Him. I was going to constantly put what I wanted in front of what God wanted. The scary part of all this is that I don't know what all this looks like. I don't know how to begin. So for now I will wait for God to continue to work in me and I will walk again soon one day! I believe that ! I will give God the glory when it happens. I want to help people and hopefully show them the beauty in life and in God . I want to make a difference in the world. I believe that is my purpose.