Missing Parts

I cannot believe that it has been almost 3 months since I last blogged! Life has been anything but forgiving... As I sit here and reflect over what has happened in my life I would never had seen any of it coming had you asked me in June. Isn't that how our lives are though. I wonder how Jesus felt knowing what he ultimately had to do. Die on the cross for all the people ... The same people that spat on him, called him names, beat him and nailed him to a cross! I go through life on a daily basis with having to use one arm and have trouble still with my leg. I am in allot of physical pain. This is caused by a disease. I cannot blame anyone for that. This is what has been handed to me and I am making the best of it. The things that cut the most are what other people say to me, their harmful actions, and lack of love. I could never have been Jesus. The thing is that we are called to be "like" Him. Swallow that! That means that we are supposed to forgive as much as He did, love as deep as He did... I have allot of time that I am alone and I think. I think about all the crap that I go through and I try to find the purpose in it. Sometimes I figure it out, and sometimes I don't. I have come to the conclusion that God wants us to have missing parts so that we rely on him. So that He is the one that makes us whole not ourselves. I only wish that more people realized these things. It would eliminate allot of the hurt.